Time

There is not enough time in the day.  I want to spend individual time with both my children, have some good conversation with my husband, have some me time and get a good night's rest.  I have yet to find a way to fit all of these into one day, and after I start work it will be much harder.  I feel selfish a lot that I sacrifice sleep for some me time, and then have less patience with the kids the next day because I'm tired.  I know that no one is perfect, but I often feel I come short in the parenting department.  When I was younger I didn't want children, I did babysit but only for the money not because I had any interest or enjoyment in watching children.  Now here I find myself the mother of 2 wonderful children, and feeling completely lacking in giving them what they need to be nurtured correctly. 

Gardens

It's that time of year to start planning one's garden!  I'm Denver so any outdoor planting is still a few months off.  I've also joined a CSA this year so even if my garden flops like last year I'll have plenty of local organic produce, and pastured eggs!  If you are interested in CSA opportunities near you check out Loal Harvest. 
I'm only allowed to plant a strip about 1.5 feet wide and I don't know how long, the length of the backyard, as my husband is obsessed with yard care and my garden doesn't fit into his ascetic.  So for my small strip I am planning on planting 4 tomatoes (2 cherry, 2 normal), some zucchini, some cucumbers, carrots, string beans, spinach, Swiss chard, and maybe some pumpkins.  It'll be a tight squeeze I think but since I won't be pregnant and morning sick I'll be able to work a lot more in the garden this year.  My dream is to have everything at least have some produce, and the best case would be to can some.  Wish me luck!  I'll be planting the tomatoes soon.

Too Fast

I can't believe how big H is already.  6 weeks since she was born, and only 1 month left before I go back to work.  I think I'll be ready but sad, I'm not a very good SAHM.  I just need a little more social interaction than I've been having.  I wish it were warmer so I'd feel more like being outside and taking the kids for walks.

Library Blues

I understand there isn't enough money right now to pay for all the community services we have come to expect.  I know cuts need to be made to balance the budget.  What I don't understand is why my library branch needs to be closed Saturday, Sunday, and Monday.  Why couldn't it be open one weekend day?  Where will all the kids in the neighborhood go now?  Saturdays that place was hopping and now I fear for where those kids will spend their time.

Crochet

One of my friend's daughters is having a birthday soon, so I've been making her some presents. I figure a 2 year old would like a hat with a big flower right? I am also working on a cupcake purse. I think L is a little jealous, I have to keep distracting him because he wants to keep everything for himself!

Lazy morning

L was so good this morning, eating very quietly and savoring his breakfast. H also cooperated by sleeping so I was able to have a cup of coffee and get some reading done in my book. Thank god for small breaks!

New Bucket!

My son calls anything you stand on to reach things a bucket. This is because he uses an actual bucket for this purpose to draw on the paper on his easel. My husband bought a new two step stepstool so L can reach the kitchen sink. This has caused much excitement and exclaims of "Oh bucket! Yay!"

Changes

So, it's been a really really long time since I posted anything. I've been reading a lot of books lately by people with blogs, so I though hey I've got a blog maybe I'll start writing again. I deleted most of my old posts...but kept a few I really like.
So anyway, here I am a 30 year old mother of 2, L who is 2 and H who is 1 month, I've been married for 5.5 years. I love to read and craft but lately have been changing a lot of diapers and drinking more coffee than is normal for me.
Welcome to my "updated" blog. I'll figure out my direction at some point...